First Things First.

The following story is based on real events. Names have been changed so that you'll have no idea who I'm really talking about.

Hank's Tuesday began like most winter days. His bladder had rudely woken him and bullied the warm covers from his body. It was 4:06, which meant that after he peed, he'd have a little over an hour to lie in bed and think about shit until the alarm went off.  In the dark, Hank trudged the few familiar steps to the bathroom, not bothering to switch on the light. 

As he pulled his gym shorts down, he felt something brush against the inside of his left leg. It felt like a piece of laundry had been stuck inside his shorts and fallen out. The hell was that? Hank wondered. 

The answer was prompt. It wasn't too dark for his aging eyes to register the five-inch rat scurrying along the bathroom floor, frantically searching for escape. Hank's thoughts materialized in the following order:

1) F^*k! Gross! That's f*$king Gross! Ahh! F&%k!

2) Oh my God. Is that one of those toilet rats? I think it might be. What are the chances?

3) F^*k! Gross! That's f*$king Gross! Ahh! F&%k!

4) I need to get that rat.

Hank flicked on the bathroom light just in time to see it skittering out of the bathroom, its little rat claws clickety clacking on the tile. A right turn would've given the beast access to the entire house, but for whatever reason, the gods of rodential home invasion smiled upon Hank that cold January morn. The little bastard juked left and into the spare bedroom.  

Quickly and as quietly as possible, Hank chased the creature further into the bedroom, then turned on the light and closed the door behind him. Silence. It has to be under there, Hank thought. He lowered himself into the throw rug and peered under the bed, discerning the silhouette of the small mammal perched all the way back where the walls came together.

Hanks's thoughts materialized in the following order:

1) F^*k! Gross! That's f*$king Gross! Ahh! F&%k!

2) It would be really great to take care of this before Stephanie (Hank's partner) wakes up. She doesn't do well with this sort of thing.

3) Should I trap it? How? With a f*&ing Tupperware bowl? I'm not going to do that. I think I need to kill it. Shit. But how do I kill it? With a stick, that's how! Yeah, get a big stick and kill it!

4) F^*k! Gross! That's f*$king Gross! Ahh! F&%k!

Hank left the bedroom, closing the door and half sure that the rat wouldn't be going anywhere unless provoked. The broom closet didn't offer much in the way rodent-destroying weaponry, but there was a ratty, girthy, plastic broom that hung on the wall. Hank and Stephanie had owned it for ages.  It had a higher calling now. He grabbed it.

Hank dashed back to the bedroom, confident that a couple of good whacks would slow the vermin down enough to finish it off. He poked under the bed, bristle end first. It wasn't working. Every time the mangy little bitch ass punk came out into the open, he'd be out of position to bring the hammer down. Each fruitless swipe against the hardwoods would splinter off jagged shards of broom plastic along the floor.

"Hank?" Stephanie was outside the bedroom door.  "What are you doing?"

Shit. He had to tell her now. "There's a rat in here."

"Are you f*&ing kidding me?"

"No."

"Oh my god."

"It was on the toilet when I went in there. I think it might be one of those toilet rats."

"That's disgusting."

"I know. It's trapped under the bed. I'm trying to get it out from under there so I can hit it with this broom. But it's not working."

"Do you need my help?" said Stephanie, her voice shaking. Hank knew it was a question she really, really didn't want to ask.

"I think so," he said. "Can you grab something to poke at it when it's in the corner under the bed? Then I can be ready for it when it runs out."

"Okay." Hank heard Stephanie's footsteps making their way to the broom closet. A few seconds later, she opened the bedroom door, gripping a metal dust mop handle with both hands. "I'll get up on the bed and poke at it with this," she said.

"Okay," Hank said.

"But before that, we should put our shoes on."

"Good call," said Hank. "Definitely a shoe occasion." He grabbed his running shoes and laced them onto his bare feet, deciding for whatever reason that socks weren't called for when the game was Whack-a-Rat®.

Stephanie stepped onto the bed and positioned herself near the head and against the corner. Without panic or wasted motion, she worked the stick behind the bed, poking and prodding at the shit squirrel. Time and again, the rat dashed onto the open bedroom floor, the broom narrowly missing its target with each swing. One swipe did land solidly, resulting in a satisfying, dog toy-like squeak from Rat Fink. 

Finally, like a calf that's lassoed and roped with perfect timing, the little f*7cker came darting out to Hank's right, allowing Hank to slam down the bristle end over its body and press down. The thing was trapped, the only proof of life being its curly tail flailing outside the confines of the broom head. Hank held steady pressure, not letting up until the tail stopped moving, and then some. It was done. 

"I'll get the shovel," he said.

As Hank made his way to the tool shed, feelings of both repulsion and exhilaration washed over him. He and Stephanie had done this together. What would have happened if that thing had disappeared into the house? How would they have slept then? Closing his eyes, he summoned the spirits of his Neanderthal ancestors with gratitude. How different are we, really? Hank thought. 

Then he remembered that he wore shoes when he hunted and also wouldn't end up eating the rat like they probably would. 

He returned to the house and scooped up the carcass, flicking it unceremoniously into the ravine behind the backyard. When he came back inside, Stephanie was still in the spare bedroom. They looked at each other, then hugged. There wasn't a lot to say. It would be a while before the day picked up for each of them, but it eventually did.

One More to the Fall Classic

Well, hello. Thought I'd check in again. It's been such a long time since we last touched base, and now 2025 is set to peace out in a couple of months. Apparently the better looking I get, the more time speeds up.

I still can't believe it's 2025. Sounds so sci-fi, which makes me annoyed that the jetpacks still haven't become a thing. I was thinking though, you'd have some really bad jetpack accidents, right? It would be like taking those bitch ass electric scooters and dropping them from the sky with tequila-soaked, 150-pound, Gen-Z meat torpedos loosely gripping the handlebars prior to juicily thwacking onto the embarcadero. 

Throughout the year, I've experienced a few false starts after deciding to write something new,. Time and again, I'd talk myself out of it, feeling the pull of all the depressing shit going on around us. Why recap all the horrible, horrific things? We're watching it in real time every day. 

That's where my mind gravitated each time—and to the culprits responsible for so much suffering. I found myself brainstorming insulting monikers: Stephen "Even My Mom Hates Me" Miller, Kristi Gnome, JD "Is There Eye Liner In My Beard?" Vance, Mike "I Go Places You Wouldn't Believe With My" Johnson, and last but not least, the Orange King of Brown Diapertown, Pope Dumb Ass I, The Great Gonorrheanator himself... 

...the name escapes me. But enough of those fools; their time will come. 

I'm writing today for one reason: tonight, the Seattle Mariners are playing for their first trip the World Series. We're talking about a team that's been around for 48 years, a squad that hasn't even sniffed a title since it's inception in 1977. To give you an idea of how long ago that was, I managed to dig up some notable events from that spring the M's first trotted onto the astroturf of King County Stadium:

1) Olympic Junior High in Auburn, Washington holds its annual spring dance. According to reports, most students don't drink or use combustibles beforehand, but many do. Those students reportedly have a better time. 

2) As obtained from eyewitness accounts, after the dance, the attendees walk to Pizza Hut (an actual hut in 1977). Some never go inside, instead smoking and/or throwing up in the convenient shrub beds that line the hut.

3) According to interviews, everyone is pretty well sobered up by the time the parents roll up around midnight. Even so, most dance attendees opt for the cautious route, choosing to just be cool and ride home silently in the back seat of the Gran Torino.

Wow, that was ages ago. Thank God for archives on microfiche. 

Anyway, I'm trying to savor this moment and these few hours prior to Game 7. It's been a rough year, and this Mariner run could not have happened at a better time for Seattle. It's been a slow recovery post-covid, but for all its well-documented flaws, our city is still a wonderful place. 

Prediction: M's win 8-7 in 11 innings.

Another Quarterly Newsletter

Hey, you. Been a minute. As Robin, the world's number-one number two might say, "Holy wrist cramp, Batman, it's about time you wrote something again." 

Indeed it is, old chum. I can always count on you to set me straight. It is a bit unfortunate, however, that my bat vision has again been mercilessly hijacked by that straining, threadbare moose knuckle of yours. What's the name of that pose, anyway—Flasher Moth?

I'll stop being Batman now. How are you holding up these days? When we last connected in July, had you any inkling that that witless, salmon-dyed ass captain would again be elected president? I really didn't think it could happen, not when it boiled down to each American blacking out that little oval on the ballot. How could a 34-time convicted felon who incited an attempted coup win back the office he nearly refused to leave last time?

Only in the U S of A. Or...Hungary or Turkey.

Granted, Joe Biden didn't do the Democrats any favors by showing up at the debate looking like a college freshman who'd just hoovered a papa nug of his older roommate's skunk bud, leaving him with the entire English language on the tip of his tongue. 

Nope, not helpful, and it proved to be a bridge too far, where even the newly-allied Dems and old-school Republicans couldn't provide enough of a bump to overcome the will of America's premier political party: People With Grievances. Here's a small list of their grievances, followed by some watertight counterpoints.

Grievance: The mainstream media is nothing more than a communications outlet for the socialist deep state and very possibly the Illuminati. 

Ironclad retort: Bullshit. Just because you don't like the information doesn't mean the information isn't true. Check out the sourced journalism at AP, rather than the unfettered chatter bouncing around the echo chambers of TikTok, X, One America Network, CNN and MSNBC.

Grievance: High egg prices are Biden's fault. Not sure why, exactly, they just are.

Ironclad retort: High egg prices are the direct result of an unprecedented avian flu epidemic, and it might not be the best of timing in dismantling the CDC and NIH. 

Grievance: LGBTQ+ rights, DEI and general wokeness is fake news. Why endow some people with more rights than others? 

Ironclad retort: Let's be clear on this one. Straight, white people start the ninth inning standing on third base, and that transgender person in the bathroom just has to pee. Wokeness, while no longer a fashionable term, simply means compassion and if you're against that, it's on you.

Grievance: Illegal immigration is threatening our safety and stealing our jobs.

Ironclad retort: It's a problem, no doubt about it. But tell me, People with Grievances, how has this personally affected you? Maybe you truly are running around out there in the wild, dodging murderers and rapists at every turn. But once that baby gets thrown out of the country with the bathwater, you might plan on seeing a dishwashing fee tacked onto the tab next time you visit your favorite bar or eatery. 

Okay, enough of the politics. We'll get through this the same way we made it through the first term, and every day that passes is one less day that orange shitsicle plants his hemhorroid-ribboned haunches behind the Resolute Desk.  

On a personal note, my life has changed a bit since we last talked. Following a six-month job search, one in which I learned that this age thing really is a bit of a albatross, I landed a job at a place you may be familiar with. I'm not going to lie, it's been quite an adjustment. After spending 39 years at desk jobs, let's just say I've arrived home pretty tired for that first twenty-two weeks or so. 

I've also managed to find my way into the art department, where the signs and displays are done by hand. Here's an example, if you haven't guessed my new establishment:

I've chronicled my art journey on a Pinterest page here, if you're interested. See if you can tell which sign was the first one (It shouldn't be too hard, I don't think!). 

Also, I published Against the Edge, my debut novel on Amazon in September. Thanks so much to those of you who've so generously supported this ten-year endeavor, and please tell your friends. My marketing effort is as rustic as Fred Flintstone's electric shaver. 

Hang in there.

Now Streaming

Greetings, this midsummer evening. I hope you're well and that the little things are mattering in your life. By the way, I'm not sure "mattering" is a word. If it is, it might mean something quite different, for instance, inadvertent skin shedding. An example would be, "Someone mattered on the loveseat. No more half shirts in the house, kids."

As much as we're thankful for the little things that keep us going, there are also those big things, or the things that are consequential to all of us. A prime example is the presidential race.  It's played out like a Hulu TV series, but unlike a show that streams weekly, this one puts out a new episode every day, including weekends. Think House of Cards without a predatory star in ManSpanx. 

Season 1:

The president of the United States (and protagonist, whom we'll call Joe) must come to grips with a precipitous decline in his mental and physical abilities. Joe will be the first to admit that he's lost a step or two, but he believes he's misunderstood and that frankly, his pale, tottering meat suit is all that stands between democracy and tyranny. In his view, people have suddenly forgotten his numerous presidential accomplishments and the five-decade body of work preceding it. Still, in the face of plunging poll numbers, Joe appears incapable of seeing what we, the movie watcher, can clearly track: the man is slipping quickly. 

But Joe's got one more chance, one last shot to reverse his fortunes. He's always savored his role as underdog and he's typically been a decent debater. He's no orator, but his populist opponent can barely string a sentence together and prefers to communicate in ideological sound bites. Joe welcomes this test of his Scranton grit. A solid performance could silence his critics once and for all. 

Joe bombs in the debate. Even his opponent is stunned and Joe is humiliated. He knew what he wanted to say, he just couldn't get it out. Days later, his opponent survives an assassination attempt, followed by a coronation at his party's convention. At 48%, he's never enjoyed a higher favorability rating. Politically speaking, things have never looked darker for Joe.

His closest allies urge him to reconsider his candidacy. Joe now faces a decision. The decision. In a soft, mildly hoarse tone, Joe tells us that he's got an announcement to make.

End, Season 1

After years of anxiety regarding Joe's future plans, I haven't felt this optimistic in a long time. And is it just me, or didn't Joe always seem like the perfect stopgap solution, as opposed to a long-term answer? 

Here are some things I've been wrong about:

• Lance Armstrong is a good guy.  

• I can jump over that double railroad tie.

• Today's the day I'll find something new and delicious at Safeway.

• That Hasselhoff can act.

• The ants will go away. 

• I won't worry about peeing before I leave.

But I don't think I'll be wrong in thinking that Kamala is going to win.

Pretty in Gray

Hello and happy June! According to my new bestie, ChatGPT, the month of June attributes its name to Juno, the Roman goddess of marriage and childbirth, among other things.  

Okay, first of all, let's state the obvious: June should not be named after some nebulous pagan deity—it should be named after freaking June Cleaver. She's the goddess of basically everything, and will forever beckon my heart until we meet again for a hearty back hug and glass of whole milk in heaven's kitchen.

And secondly, marriage and childbirth are two completely disparate arenas for Juno to preside over. Weddings don't involve excruciating lumbar pain, ice chips and spectacular torrents of profanity directed at the groom for inflicting such suffering. That happens on the honeymoon (ba-doom-bah).

Anyway, thought I'd grease the skids a little by rattling off a few more fake headlines that were left strewn across The Needling's cutting room floor over the past month or so:

• Kraken drops Root Sports and pisses off all 4 subscribers.
• Trump confused about why Supreme Court won't grant immunity to his debilitating syphilis.
• West Seattle man jogs into crosswalk with 3 seconds to go and still makes it to other side in plenty of time.
• All light rail stations slated to include Level 1 trauma centers by 2035.
• West Seattle man confirms that it's the end of the world and the ants are taking over.
• Justice Alito says every day is Flag Day, bitch.
• "I love that shit, man." Biden perplexed as to why Israel wants to eliminate hummus.
• Group of pissed off kids and a few adults with PTSD chase away Seafair Pirates for fucking good.
• For 143rd straight year, lawn darts and Jågermeister top Father's Day wishlists.
• Record low tide at Alki reveals body of Jimmy Hoffa.
• Trump-Biden debate to include dunk tank.

There we go. Helps the digestion to purge myself of that mental flotsam. I feel randy and spry once again. 

In other non-developments, it's hard to believe I've been pretired* now for over four months.

*"Pretired" is a term I made up. It's defined as the 5-7 year period prior to full-on retiring, when jobless oldsters are most vulnerable to ageist asshole hiring managers and their bullshit attitudes about older people. The word is a shirt-tail relative of "funemployment." 

I had heard that getting a job was more challenging for those of us a little longer in the ear hair, but experiencing it in real time was a little shocking. One interview seemed to have gone particularly well. It was a solid 45 minutes long and it seemed like the role was a perfect fit for my skill set. In addition, I felt like I'd really hit it off with the Chief Creative Officer (a title I now find sort of obnoxious). I was ready to enter the weekend feeling more confident than Rudy Guiliani with a new catheter. But at the very end, just before signing off, he thanked me for my time and told me that "we're looking for someone who can inject some energy into our department." 

Right. Energy. I understand your code, hipster. One of the most frustrating things I've encountered during my job search is the assumption that five or six good years at a place just isn't enough for an employer to take the "risk". Here's a little secret for the chief creative poobah: My generation is one of the most loyal workforces out there. I can't speak for X, Y or the Millennials, but in my experience, if you can get five years out of anyone these days, that's pretty damn good. 

But bitterness is not a good look, right? Two recent documentaries—Brats, with Andrew McCarthy and Thank You, Goodnight, with Jon Bon Jovi—illustrate just that. Both men are staring down 60 and both appear quite unsettled about their legacies. They go to extremes to get answers, and (spoiler alert), I'm not sure the answers were the ones they were chasing. Men my age tend to define themselves by their careers, and that's my challenge. Paradigms grow calcified over time, and I can choose to wallow in the unfairness of it all, or I can move forward and find joy in the everyday. 

It's what my favorite people already do.

A First Quarter Newsletter

Hey! Great to be back in front of your foxy eyeballs. My last post was back in '23, so I thought it might be nice to pull out the BIC ballpoint and get caught up. 

As Ross might say, a few things have pivahhhht-ed. At its onset, 2024 showed unmitigated promise. The year opened with my Huskies earning the college football silver medal following their greatest season ever. Just twelve days later, my baby girl was married in a ceremony that was so much fun, no more fun was available for the rest of the month. 

My wife came down with covid two days after the wedding, then I caught it. A week after that, just as things seemed to be returning to normal, I was laid off from a company I'd been with for 32 years. Shocking? Yes, like a bad dream. Surprising? Not really. Artificial intelligence is upon us, and it was apparently time for the robots to take over designing ads and emails. I can hear their metal fingers tapping the keyboard as they work silently in long rows. They don't take lunch breaks or waste time in the bathroom stalls because they don't eat. And go ahead and get rid of the Keurig because robots don't drink coffee either. So many wins. 

I've been hemming and hawing about further discussing my joblessness. It happened over two months ago now and I already thoroughly plastered it across LinkedIn and Facebook. Before that, I posted this cryptic IG story: 

A lot of you reached out in the ensuing days and weeks with words of encouragement and empathy. This was huge. I'd never been laid off before, and I really think I'd gotten to the point of considering myself unlayoffable, which I realize now was a little naive. Regardless of who we are or what we do, there's always a chance that the coach is going to want to see you in her office on a random Thursday morning. And yes, bring your playbook.  

I did finish the puzzle in late March:

And that's about it. Tragically, I learned that All My Children and One Life to Live went off the air a while back, so I'm working through how to fill that hole in my daytime life. I've been looking for jobs, both freelance and otherwise, and collecting unemployment. Life's not too shabby. I've had the time to go for really long walks and write a little bit more. In fact, since you are a loyal reader, I'll let you in on this headline I wrote for the Needling that I didn't really tell anyone about since it's, well, inflammatory: 

Like I said, I just came up with the headline, but the whole article is here.

To close out, here are a few more fake headlines that were not selected. You might notice that I was a little salty about the way things shook out in college football:

• New UW coach Fisch vows to give Huskies the best months of his life.

• South Lake Union poodle fed up, leaves Instagram.

• Overworked mom enters transfer portal.
• Coach DeBoer sidelined with sexually transmitted infection after fucking so many schools.
• WSU to have bake sale for football team Thursday night at the Elks Club. 

• New Carnation Amphitheater hopes to compete with larger venues by also making your departure a living hell.

• Banned from sheriff's association, Loren Culp fine with just being the town drunk.
• Citing years of futility, Mariners petition MLB for aluminum bats and an extra outfielder.

I hope you're doing well. Take care of yourself and try not to think about the election yet.

I can say that? Okay!

It's been a while! Good to see you again, at least in a figurative sense. Last time I checked in was August and now look at us, already nestled in the lardy perineum between Thanksgiving and New Year's Day. I'd like to say I've been too busy to write, but please, if I can find the time to consume all twelve seasons of Evil Lives Here in a single fortnight, I can probably pound out a blog post or two. But enough with the self-debasement (put that in de basement). I actually have been writing, but it's been in pursuit of a different objective, namely fake journalism. 

Chances are you're familiar with The Onion, a satirical website that parodies current events through the guise and format of a real newspapers, but without bylines. To illustrate, here's a headline from last week: Leonardo DiCaprio Tears Fabric Of Universe Apart Attempting To Have Sex With Girl Not Yet Born.

Kind of edgy and inappropriate, yes? Also right up my alley. And as luck would have it, Seattle has its own version of The Onion, focused predominately on Seattle and the PNW, but also with the occasional piece centered around a national issue. It's called The Needling, Seattle's Only Real Fake News. 

Started five years ago by Lex Vaughn, former real reporter for the Seattle Times and winner of the actual Pulitzer prize for her coverage of the Oso Mudslide, The Needling was born when she decided to combine her love of comedy with some formidable journalistic chops.

Even though it's been around since 2018, I was oblivious to The Needling's existence until last spring. But when I discovered that they accepted headline pitches from the general public, I immediately became Lex's worst nightmare. Having been a serial maker-funner-of all my life, I now had an outlet for all things emanating from the darkest, most warped corners of Tim's Funnytown. 

Not knowing if I'd even be in the ballpark, I submitted these headlines for last May's upcoming news stories:

Seattle is the fastest growing city in the US, especially since starting puberty over the summer.

Drivers in Seattle swerve, honk and say what the fuck in honor of World Bicycle Day.

(For Father's Day) Local dad hugs kids, says you can never have enough WD40.

Mother confirms that Father's Day is every day when it comes to husband Larry.

Gen Z to observe two consecutive Sundays this Sunday.

Rep. Jim Jordan to wrestle child for Ohio children's charity.

Meta users found three times less likely to hold a train of—

Local militia hosts weenie roast fundraiser for member who blew penis off.

Mariners run out of shades of blue, move on to various orange tints.

Lex replied a couple of days later (and who do you think was Mr. Happy then!), saying that the Mariner headline was a strong candidate for a story in The Needling. Naturally, I dropped everything and wrote up the story, using the journalistic format that is required for these types of stores.

Mariners Run Out of Shades of Blue, Move On to Various Orange Tints

Having exhausted every shade of blue following the unveiling of their “city connect” uniforms, The Seattle Mariners announced an “exciting new direction” in color scheme on Wednesday.

“Our new orange shades may seem random to some of our fans,” said Andy Hockinson, Assistant Director of Excess Marketing, “but they’re so much more than that. Once a week for the rest of the summer, our players will be wearing a different ‘Salute to Eastern Washington’ uniform. We call them our ‘Eastside Burner’ unis, where every shade of orange is from an actual wildfire. Monday’s outfits get their vibe from the 2015 Chelan Wolverine blaze. Simply put, they’re breathtaking.”

While shifting color palettes have become commonplace for many major league sports franchises, the Mariners believe they’ve set themselves apart by tapping into the dramatic hues of natural disaster. “This is only the beginning,” said Stacey Shawcey, Mariners Vice President of Customer Engagement. “We’ve got a Seattle Fault Tsunami colorway all ready to go—sort of a muddy, grey, murky look. God forbid something like that ever happens, but let’s face it, the kids are gonna want that merch.”

Shaw said the Mariners will be having some great promotions to coincide with this summer’s Salute to Eastern Washington series, including Monday’s game against the Rangers where the first 10,000 fans will receive “Matt Brashfire” bobbleheads. First pitch is at 7:05.

Ultimately, this story wasn't meant to see the smoky, filtered light of day. It didn't quite clear the gauntlet of editors and reviewers needed for publication, but that was okay. I'd now at least made the list of contributors that received periodic emails from Lex containing prompts of upcoming local and national newsworthy events. All summer and into the early fall I pitched headlines):

To celebrate National Coming Out Day, Elon Musk reveals that he's been an awkward douchebag his whole life.

Crowd cheers as children chase off Seafair Pirates once and for all.

WSU football coach excited about joining "crazy talented" Texas high school league.

Death Cab for Cutie adds afternoon show at Fife Senior Center.

Citing lagging exchange rate, Canadians only 84% sorry for exploiting indigenous peoples this Thanksgiving.

FDA lists Big Mac as most effective over-the-counter laxative.

Florida voters approve less cumbersome non-sex offender registry.

Bezos moves to Florida because that’s where all serial killers go at the end.

Bezos moves to Florida to constantly be closer to Blue Origin penis rockets.

Bezos wants Seattle to know that he appreciates you. Not.

Local dog laughs off frightening misunderstanding about Veterinarian's Day.

Colon health nonprofit pushes for name change to Brown Friday.

New Seattle mental health response squad thinks it would be cool to dress like Fantastic Four.

Apple Cup to Kick Off at 1:00 Because That's When Most WSU Fans' Edibles Will Kick in.

Seven Handmaids Escape Washington Commanders Team Hotel During Loss to Seahawks

Local Third Grader Really Fucking Stressed About Parent/Teacher Conferences

Federal Way Dad Suffocates on Jolly Ranchers in Heartbreaking Attempt to Finally Finish Off the Shitty Halloween Candy

Then in October, I hit paydirt. Rather than pasting the whole article here, I figured you could just click on the link if you want to read it:

Climate Pledge Arena to offer a hot dog, small drink and kick in the throat for $49.99

I'll tell you, when I found out this one had made it through the gauntlet, it felt like Lorne Michaels had green-lighted my sketch idea. I was elated, and I'm so grateful to Lex and her crew for entertaining the questionable material that typically performs in my brain before an audience of one. 

More to come, hopefully.

An Eventful Summer, Yes?

Hello again and happy midsummer! 

In the words of '90s one-hit crooners 4 Non Blondes, I said hey, what's going on? (Actually, the song is called "What's up?" yet at no time does she sing the actual words "what's up". I'm thinking it's because after she woke up in morning and stepped outside, she took a deep breath, got real high, poured herself a bowl of Boo Berry and forgot the rest). Even so, I do love that song and its grungy grunginess.

It's been an eventful summer, but by "eventful," I'm sorry to say I don't mean county fairs and ice cream trucks. The devastation caused by the Maui wildfires can't be accurately put into words. The Maui Strong Fund is a great place to donate if you can. If there was ever a time for the millions of us who've enjoyed (and dare I say, exploited) this paradise to step up—myself included—that time is now. And stop blaming Biden for...whatever you seem to be blaming him for when it comes to Maui.

West Maui, as seen from Ali'i Lavender Farm, July, 2023

Indeed, the summer of '23 hasn't been full-on awesomeness. In July, Jason Aldean's "Try That in a Small Town" rocketed to the top of the country charts, its lyrics celebrating racism and violence. The video was even shot at the Tennessee's Maury County, site of a lynching in 1927. As much of a craze as this song became for a cup of coffee or even two, hate is the enemy of creativity, Jason. See Ted Nugent.

Then, just couple of weeks later, the U.S. Women's National Team lost to Sweden, forcing its earliest exit in the history of the World Cup. To make matters worse, their elimination was heralded by some rightward-leaning pundits as just desserts for a squad of commies masquerading as patriotic footballers. They were even accused of tanking the games to screw their country. Yeah, that's rational.

On a positive note, while the plague still circulates among us like a vaporous swirl of Dementors, we've nonetheless returned to what might be considered normalish. Thanks to the quasi herd immunity brought on by life-saving vaccines and dead but nicely de-wormed ivermectin users, society can again enjoy hanging together. Which is nice.

Summer TV has been good too, and I'm not even talking about the latest "Untold" episodes on Netflix or that series about the Duggars on Prime (both fantastic). I'm talking about network news, where pert-near every week has brought with it a new set of criminal indictments against Little Mister Toadstool Pants.

The problem is, now that all the indictments are in, we'll still have to wait several months to see Satsuma Noggin face justice. I'm also low-key salivating at the thought of Rudy Giuliani's saggy ass being traded for three Marlboro Lights and a can of WD-40 somewhere in the bowels of Rikers Island. And if I weren't already a highly disciplined TV watcher from finding other uses of my time in between seasons of The Handmaid's Tale, I'd be rip roaring ready for them to mugshoot that mug, fingerprint those fingers (I wonder how they deal with all pinkies) and light this candle. 

I know, I know. The wheels of justice turn at the speed of Twinkie compost. I'll move on. 

Before I started writing this post, I thought, do I really want my blog to devolve into nothing more than a bitchfest about the dumb but fervent fascist enemy among us? After all, fourteen years ago ROASP began as nothing more than a journal of my life as a dad to a couple of funny daughters. Is it constructive to hurl cheap insults and coin new monikers for the bloated nationalist strongmen who are currently attempting to murder our democratic system? 

I'll say yes. And despite today's subject matter, please have a great rest of your summer.

Rejecting Rejection

How are you at handling rejection? Not great? Yeah, same here.

Sucky as it is, rejection is a wallop to the tum tum that we all have to deal with every so often. And it's not even unique to the human experience. If you're of an age as I am, you may remember tuning into Mutual of Omaha's Wild Kingdom just in time to see the elderly chimp blackballed by the young douchebags of the clan and banished to a thirsty prune grove on a remote savannah. Thank God Jim Fowler was there to wrestle the old guy to the ground, stuff him in a helicopter and take him to LA to live out his life in Fowler's backyard, with occasional day trips to Burbank for Tonight Show appearances.

I think most of us learn rejection early. It could be the second-grade recess friend triangle that exposes us to our first experience of getthefuckoutofhereism, or that time in third grade when friends 1 through 5 get invited to Jeffrey Johnson's birthday party, while we weigh in at number 6. 

In junior high, I can remember rejection as being more commonplace than smelly jeans. Dances were the worst, especially for the girls. It was the '70s and Victorian rules still applied, meaning boys asked girls to dance. It was the rare seventh grade girl who asked a boy and an even rarer one who danced with another girl. Because of this, it wasn't uncommon for a girl to show up dressed in something really nice that she'd planned and prepared for weeks, only to stand around the whole time and go home danceless. Awful, and even though it wouldn't exactly have been Prince Charming to the rescue, I regret not having the  gumption to take more action than I did.

Rejection can feel so personal. How do you know it really isn't about you? I suppose one way is to reject rejection itself, like a certain citrus-skinned assface who wears red ties that hang down to his Huggy-draped taint.* In his case it's more rejection denial than election denial.

*Please see Blogger user agreement which requires one sick Trump fry per post.

I've been a graphic designer for 33 years, a job where rejection is a necessary component of the creative culling process. Is it possible that I may have been a little sensey-poo in those early days, maybe even referring to myself as a fake designer on occasion? 'Tis. But over the years, I've become hardened. A rough shell has formed around my ego, a fragile membrane covering the molten ball of resentment that will surely bubble to the surface when I uncup that mouse for the last time. 

But there's another category of rejection that I really wanted to talk about. It's the kind where you start with the old tabula rasa and go from there. Throughout the past ten years I've been writing and revising two middle grade novels—stories with an intended reader of ten to fourteen years old, but really meant for anyone. 

The first one is Ben's Fall. Set in the late summer, early autumn of 1975, Ben’s Fall is the tale of twelve-year-old Ben Lacey. Already anxious about his impending entry into the “big time” of junior high school, Ben’s stress is further compounded by his alcoholic father who constantly demeans his son’s lack of initiative and manliness. While Ben’s mother futilely attempts to protect him from his dad’s emotional abuse, Ben’s only true refuges is at the home of his closest confidant, Joel, and Joel’s single father, Bruce.

When school begins and Ben is thrust into a sea of older kids, girls and more worldly influences, his feelings of inadequacy only worsen. In the midst of his desperation to fit in, “cool kid” Lonnie Comstock befriends Ben and rescues him from an embarrassing incident in the boys’ restroom. Feeling both indebted to and accepted by Jake, Ben agrees to engage in an illegal after-school activity that he hopes may ultimately prove his worth to his father. It could also result in his dream bike: a Schwinn Fastback Five-Speed Stingray.

Each of Ben’s ill-fated decisions further stretch the distance between him and Joel, yet he’s now become blinded by Jake’s charisma and manipulation. When tragedy strikes, Ben is faced with some painful decisions to win back Joel. But is it too late?

The other middle grade novel is Against the Edge. Set in contemporary Seattle, it's the story of eleven-year-old fifth grader, Theo Cloverdale. Theo is reluctantly thrust into a relationship with Nathan, a classmate with special needs. The two boys are paired as partners for a class field trip to Seattle’s Olympic Sculpture Park, located along the downtown waterfront. Theo's mother Katie attends as a chaperone.

When the class becomes distracted by Lucy, an unruly classmate, Nathan wanders off and is eventually corralled by Theo at the top of the hill. With the boys separated from the other students, a massive natural disaster strikes Elliott Bay. Most of the class is swept into the mayhem, including Katie, and all is witnessed by Theo. 

Despite his profound trauma, Theo acts heroically and his bravery wins him instant, if unwelcome, celebrity. With his mother and many classmates still missing, and faced with this newfound notoriety, Theo’s turmoil reaches a boiling point when an individual enters his life, poised to become his greatest ally—or worst enemy.

Those paragraphs are excerpts from query letters I wrote to perspective agents. Just for a little background info, literary agents have nearly exclusive access to publishers. Agents receive hundreds of queries per week from people like me and must wade through mountains of sample chapters and synopses in search of the next Hunger Games or Holes. Chances are microscopic that a rookie author can run the entire gauntlet, from blind querying to signing with an agent to penning a book deal to cracking open a pristine copy of a hardback copy. It's almost impossible, really.

Unless you're my sister, Ann. In 2009, on the strength of her debut novel, Also Known As Harper, she did just that, snagging an agent, who then marketed the story into a bidding war (or "auction," as it's called in that scenario) between two publishers. The result was a two-book deal with Henry Holt and Company. Around that time, she began encouraging me to consider writing a middle grade novel. Maybe I will, I thought, reverting to my four-year-old self. If she can do it, I can do it. How hard can it be?

Really, really hard, that's how hard. Ben's Fall received 61 rejections, while Against the Edge has now accumulated a whopping 328. Three agents requested full manuscripts of Ben's Fall and six asked for the whole enchilada of Against the Edge. Things have gotten close, just not over the top. Here are some of the kind yet heartbreaking breakup letters from agents who had requested the whole novel:

"Thank you for sending me AGAINST THE EDGE. Your writing is really gorgeous, and I love the pacific northwest backdrop. Unfortunately, while I loved your writing voice, I’m not confident I have the vision necessary to make this particular project stand out in the MG space. And so, I’ll have to pass."

"Hi Tim, I want you to know that I consider each project I receive very carefully, and while there is so much to love in your story, I found myself just not connecting to it as I would have wanted. BUT! Even though your project is not exactly what I’m looking for at the moment, I would definitely encourage you to keep trying… agents are subjective and we’re each looking for different things. I know your work is important to you and I'm absolutely grateful that you wrote to me."

"Hi Tim, I read AGAINST THE EDGE, and while I think you are a good writer, I found the subject matter a bit too terrifying for that age group. Sorry not to have a better reaction. I wish you the best of luck with your work."

Still another agent had a similar comment regarding the subject matter, but hey, kids don't get enough credit sometimes for the reading choices they make and how maturely they're able to handle "terrifying" subject matter. I've decided to keep things as they are.

After ten years of near hits and misses, I'm at a crossroads of sorts with these books. I'd love to share what I've done, whether it's through self-publishing or another option, but I'm kind of tired of shopping them around and I'm ready to move on. Since you've made it to the end of this diatribe, I'd appreciate your answer this question: Would you be interested in reading one or both books? Please be honest. 

I don't write to publish books. To me, that seems kind of sad and unfulfilling. I write because I love it and there are few things more incredible than getting into a "zone" where I actually enter the story. It's how I've always felt when I write here as well. Rejection has no place. This has been a long post, so thanks for making it all the way through.

The Damages of Fear

May is national mental health month awareness month. Excellent, right? Always a good idea to shine a spotlight on a difficult subject, maybe perform a quick self-assessment as we head into summer. To see how we feel about how we feel, yes? 

Realistically speaking, I've got to devote a lot more than thirty days a year to my mental health. If not, the unchecked emotional toppings can pile themselves thicker than a Logger pizza at Northlake Tavern (Had to give one last prop to Seattle's best pizza. Rest in peace, my delicious friend.). 

It's a subject that makes the news on a daily basis, usually in a tragic light. Regardless of our opinions about gun laws, few are disputing that these horrific acts are being committed by mentally unwell people. Seems to me like a logical precondition. 

But where do we discern between a congenital mental disorder and a normal brain that's been so saturated with fear that it alters itself? According to Mary D. Moller, associate professor at Pacific Lutheran University School of Nursing, the potential effects of chronic fear on emotional health include dissociation from self, inability to have loving feelings, earned helplessness, phobic anxiety, mood swings, obsessive-compulsive thoughts.

Sounds exhausting. The thing is, based on the support we've seen for a tiny-pawed huckster who stokes their worst fears, 74 million people were that elevated in 2020. And even more if you count the millions of rigged votes. 

Can you imagine how you'd feel on the daily if you acknowledged the existence of a globalist cabal so powerful that it controls our government, our media and our healthcare system, meanwhile eating babies simply because they taste good with chocolate milk?

Not good, I'll tell you. One of my FB friends is a former co-worker who I'll call June. I never knew June super well, but she was nice, had a good sense of humor and was solid at her job. We'd become FB friends in the platform's early days. Eventually she moved on from the company, married and had a kid. I started noticing the anti-vax posts first, nestled between family photos and memes. Then came the videos—pseudo newscasts with dubious experts and unproven claims. Finally came exchanges like this, complete with coded messages:

June: Washington state is an udder nightmare at the moment. It's just getting worse and worse. I wish it were different.

June's Friend: I am mot s proponent of public schools period. If children feel need to wear their (furry) suit to school every day there is likely a dysfunctional issue within the home or school community that the child is trying to escape or the child does not feel safe at school.

June's Other Friend: So glad you got out of Washington. God destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah for their wickedness, He can do it again in other evil places.

June: In my opinion, I don't think all this stuff belongs in school. Reading, writing, music, math, history, social studies, art and teaching kids to think for themselves. But we both know public schools are not teaching that. They have deviated far off path. They're more about social engineering the poor kiddos.

Also imho, I believe that all these changes to this demographic of children comes from the increased jab schedule. There are bits of ab0 rted feta1 d n A that has known (ancer,<irus +animal, reptile fragments etc. These jabs are basically eug€ eni( programs and our kids are the s(1ence projects. When these foreign fragments of d n A glom onto human receptor sights it alters the senses and existence of the affected person. Poor kids never even got a voice. Zero consent for them. It's a sad sick world and I've grown weary of the blinders a good part of the world has towards these products. People are literally brain wA shed by big ph ArmA. I had a friend poo poo home 0 pathics because they weren't safety tested but has a 0ncol0gist husband who left his job because the forced protocols don't work. Still the blinders?

I pray Jesus is coming!

Okay, a little to unpack there. First of all, is it a good idea to pray that JC is coming? Doesn't a bunch of terrible shit have to happen when he materializes over Mount Rainier? I can't remember how it's supposed to go, but I'm pretty sure it's not one hundred percent Mr. Pibb and Red Vines.

Secondly, I don't know what schools these people have visited, but I've spent the last six months volunteering at my wife's elementary school, and I have seen kids meow and say they're cats and bark and say they're dogs and not make any noises and say they're unicorns. That's a problem why? They're freaking kids! Did you have everything figured out when your were eight? 

Lastly, calling Washington an udder nightmare is cowist.

My intention here is not to "out" June. This could definitely lead to an un-friending, but I mean her no ill will. I understand feeling helpless in a fucked up world. Awful things happen and we're all doing our best to cope. I just wish that the fear openly expressed by her and so many others was grounded in reality.

Saying Goodbye to Canada

"Oh, Canada."

When you read those words, how do they play out in your head?

1) As a statement of surprise and delight, as in "Oh, Canada. You look quite nice in that tank top. I wasn't aware you worked out."

2) Like you just bumped into your sociopath ex-girlfriend, Canada, while boarding a cruise ship for two weeks: "Oh. Canada, Long time no see. So, you're here by yourself? Great." 

3) Most likely, you hear the opening line to the Canadian national anthem: "Ohh, Caaaaanadaaa." I know you're singing it right now. When you do, are you able to keep going? I always try, but I can only make it to "our home and native land...," then just trail off in my typical crude, West-Seattle-tinged growl. Maybe I'll try to learn it this weekend with the help of the internet. I figure if I take half a day to learn it on Saturday, I can know it for the rest of the day on Saturday prior to having no recollection by Sunday morning.

America's Hat. The Great White North. Land of Milk and Hockey—I love Canada. I'd think we all do, especially up here in the PNW, where many of us have been crossbred like Labradoodles with our cousins up yonder. They are us and we are they, eh? This entire region might as well be called Vancattle. Okay, maybe not.

Sure, there are differences. When it comes to branding, Americans prefer the fierce, majestic bald eagle to the benign yet attractive maple leaf. Canadian citizens own 35 firearms per 100 people, whereas Americans possess 120 guns per 100 residents, so while the Canadians could beat our ass with a snow shovel if they had to, chances are they wouldn't shoot us. 

For me, the relationship is complicated. My first trip to Canada as a kid was as part of a soccer exchange program between my local soccer club and a league up in BC. Along with my teammates, I was left with a randomly selected Canadian family overnight. The following day, we were reunited with our hungover parents, who then watched as we played an international friendly against our new pals (Note to future soccer parents: Never use the word "leave" or "left" with your eight-year-old, especially a month before the abandonment takes place. They'll immediately stop listening to whatever lame sales pitch you're attempting and worry about it from then on.). 

The family I stayed with was nice enough, except the house smelled like Vienna sausages and the mom kissed me goodnight. Following her unwelcome gesture of affection, I tried to sing myself to sleep with the lyrics to the Partridge Family's highly underrated second album. But alas, sleep eluded me until the wee hours of a murky British Columbian morning. Later on, I had an absolute shit soccer performance and represented my homeland shamefully against the Canadians due to a profound sleep deficit. 

Even so, a bond with our funny-sounding continent mates had been cemented, only to become bolstered over time. During my musical awakening, so much great stuff was oozing down from the north, from Joni Mitchell to Rush, from Triumph to Alanis Morissette, The Tragically Hip, Sarah McLachlan, Neil Young and Nelly Furtado. Canada had infiltrated my DNA. 

During my early adult years, I took several trips to Vancouver with my friend, John. We drank, spoke in Scottish accents to each other (his parents were from Scotland) and had our ears pierced. And who knows, I may have smoked a Player non-filter or two and purchased a Sex Pistols album that was only available north of the border. 

Our northern junkets tapered off as we grew older and formed other relationships, but I always believed someday John and I would head back up, we'd take one last trip for old time's sake. Like most of us folks looking down the backside of the mountain, I've always welcomed the opportunity to recapture a smidge of the youth that seemed to have evaporated so quickly. To my profound regret, this final, awesome, hilarious trip to Canada with John never happened. Now it can't.

Yesterday, I learned that my company has immediately ceased its operations in Canada, which includes both the online presence and 13 stores. Most people know where I work since I've been there so long, but if you don't, it's a major fashion retailer based in Seattle. The Canadian business accounts for a small portion of total sales, but it hit me so much harder than I would've thought. 

Maybe it's my strange introduction to the country or my crazy trips with John. Maybe it's my worries about job security or my age or this aversion to change that seems to go with it. Whatever the case, loss never seems to get any easier. 

Love you, Canada.

Just Around the Corner

This story originally appeared in In Parentheses Magazine, Summer 2020

Captain Kirk for Speaker of the House

Happy New Year, 2023! Heavens to Murgatroyd, did I just say 2023? That's sounds more like a Rush album than the current year of our Lord.

By the way, we were promised flying cars by now, correct? That's what I'd been led to believe, anyway, and I'm not talking about weak sauce Chitty Chitty Bang Bang-type sky jalopies. I'm talking about sleek hovercraft that are pre-programmed to pick up George Jetson from H.D. Hotspurs at exactly 2:07 AM. The nicer editions are equipped to negate the emissions of George's non-carcinogenic Marlboro Light for the ride home.

Oh, well, comme ci comme ça. We may not yet have all the futuristic goodies predicted in our Weekly Readers, but we do have some of them. Supposedly, this art is from a German magazine of the 1930s, but I couldn't confirm the name of the artist or publication. Either way, I do love the server in the background. She's like, "Look, ladies, I've been by to take your orders twice already, and since you apparently aren't able to pull your eyeholes away from those goddamn picture phones, I'll be back in an hour, bitches."

Back in the day, how did you envision the world in 2023? It probably depends on which "you" we're asking. I'd like to think I came up with a pretty Zen way of putting this: 

People change. So do things.*

*Trademark pending 

In 1973, 11-year-old me would have pictured a Star Trek-themed 2023. Interplanetary travel would be commonplace, and as galactic goodwill ambassadors, it was our duty to liberate the oppressed humanoids. This could only be accomplished by defeating the alien warlord while ripping your shirt in the process, then making out with the foxiest female-presenting alien, as James T. Kirk did repeatedly throughout the universe. 

The terms "shelter in place" and "lockdown" didn't exist for any school-age kid.

When asked in 1983 about his vision of the future, 21-year-old Tim would've shoved a hearty clod of Kodiak between his cheek and gum, stared glassy-eyed at the floor until the buzz began to wane, and then answered with something like, "I don't know, but beer." He may have briefly pondered future tech advancements like cheese-stuffed crust or crust-filled cheese, but how could he have anticipated a worldwide pandemic that's killed nearly seven million people by the year's onset? 

No one could, except maybe Bill Gates and some other members of the Illuminati.

2003 me, a father at this point and finally clued in to the earth's dicey environmental future, would have been more locked in on recycling, composting and T-ball coaching than the looming invasion of smart phone technology and its power over all of us, especially those T-ball players in a few years.

Sorry to be so depressing, but please take heart. We've experienced scads of positive developments that most of us could never have anticipated. Who would've predicted that we'd have ourselves a vaccine within a year of the outbreak, one that's now saved millions of lives? Come on, only Q could've called that one. 

And how about televisions? After decades of bulky expensiveness, did anyone really think that by 2023, TVs would be as big as a house, light as a blouse and cheap as...visiting Laos?

But since today is January 6, how about if we end with the biggest blindside of all? Despite all the warning signs—the racist rallies, the Million MAGA March, the 2.7 extra Y chromosomes (on average) per rioter—I still didn't think there was any way those yahoos were getting into the Capitol, let alone halting the election certification. Wrong again. 

I can at least find a smidge of solace in the fact that a sizable hoard of swagged-out GI Joe wannabes shat their dungarees by live-posting to their cousin wives back at the Bethesda Days Inn. Smart technology indeed. 

Two years later, the abscess remains, albeit under the surface, like those things cats get. A gaggle of Nazi congressmen and women continues to piss into the gas tank of democracy, and even with a majority, the Republicans have proven themselves incapable of agreeing on a leader. Any hope for meaningful legislation is a bridge absurdly far from where we are now.

On that cheery note, please try not to despair too much during these opening moments of 2023. The adults are still in charge and there are lots of good shows and podcasts to distract us. And who knows, maybe by the end of the year, those flying cars will show up like they promised. 

Happy New Year, friend.

The party of Lincoln is currently out of the office.

Happy November! I do love the fall. Even if it's as murky and cold as leftover moose au jus, there's a lot to be excited about. The holidays are looming, a joyous season of revelry and salty lard. 

And football—football, America's premier celebration of conquest and domination, is in full swing, even on Thursdays! Okay, it's not lost on me that staging Thursday night games, usually only four days after a team's previous game, can be hazardous to these players' health. My best argument against that, I suppose, is that I really enjoy watching football on Thursday night so they should definitely keep having these games.

How are things going in your orbit? Family's good? Job's bearable? Bladder's not screaming out like a chafing toddler with double pinkeye?

Good, good. Glad we're all on some decent footing here. Because I am nervous as shit about next Tuesday. Actually, I don't even know if "nervous" describes the emotion. Other languages include words describing more nuanced meanings than English can accommodate, words like backpfeifengesicht, which is German for "punchable face". Here's how you might see it used in a sentence: "Der Müzzerfücher Drumpf hat das backpfeifengesicht." Then you're supposed to pick your nose with your left hand and drink.

If there is a word anywhere that describes the unprecedented fear of democracy's imminent death, it defines the feeling that takes up a nice portion my current emotional baseline. The election of 2020 provided a little bit of a respite, an opportunity to crank the timer back a little. But we knew this was coming, and now, here we are. 

In the aftermath of January 6, 2021, who would have predicted that the instigator of it would be the GOP's capobanda going into the midterms? Who didn't think the guy was toast? That's when I realized it's not about him, it's about his voters and their grievances. They're pissed and they want blood. Even so, are there enough of these voters to actually defeat democracy? 

Definitely in some places, which is frightening. Couldn't you see Ron DeSantis seizing dictatorial powers in Florida? I can imagine him forcing school kids to wear little military uniforms with those white shiny rain boots that he likes. 

Or Ted Cruz could attempt to wield his newfound fascist authority by requiring everyone in America to watch his hilarious new sitcom, Teddy Didn't Do It. Turns out he's a natural when paired with Esther, the Giggling Goat. 

In truth, there's nothing funny about these people. Some present themselves as religiously oppressed conspiracy believers with little to no critical thinking skills and a profound distrust for mainstream media and factual data, while others come across as little more than crafty sociopaths attempting to slake their insatiable thirst for power by any means necessary. The party of Lincoln has gone the way of bubble gum ice cream with real bubble gum in it.

Okay, well, on that note, have a nice day. 

Holy shit, what times we live in. I do hope that, whatever happens, wherever you are, you are healthy and happy and that you're able to turn this shit off every once in a while. Unfortunately, the Nazis will still be there when you get back. There's still a lot to be grateful for, like you, and it's something I need to remind myself of from time to time. Thanks for listening. 

Checking in at the Six Decade Mark

I turned sixty the other day. That's S-I-X-T-Y, aka LX, aka L'il Five Duzzy.

How the hell did that happen? I feel like teenager, for heaven's sake (Obviously, I don't talk like one). I still even get zits—just, you know, not on my face.

Like some of us, 60 is an age I've spent the bulk of my life believing isn't just old—it's damn old. And if you're a fellow sexagenarian (that's an etymological moniker, not a condition that requires bi-weekly cognitive behavioral therapy), tidbits like these may exacerbate your angst:

1) You were born less than 20 years after the end of World War II. At the time, the average-aged war vet hadn't hit 40 yet.

2) You've seen 12 presidents, six moon landings, two Darrens and one shark jump.

3) You've been alive for 24.3% of our nation's history. That one blows my mind. 

While I'm on the subject, here's to democracy and the continued health of the great American experiment. In my opinion, our republic is teetering more precariously than any time since the 1940s. The Big Lie has legs and there's an ugly, violent movement that wants nothing more than to see the realization a real-life Gilead.

During my younger years, 60 seemed ridiculously ancient. Ten-year-old Tim would've pegged Gus the Fireman from Leave It to Beaver as somewhere around that age:

Or Chef Boyardee:

Maybe even Colonel Sanders:

I figured Santa must be somewhere in the neighborhood of 60, wearing his puffy, gin-blossomed greatcoat of comorbidities like a drunken gambler playing with house money:

Jokes aside, this birthday has left me feeling more emotional than past years, more introspective than times of yore when I was springier of chicken. I think a lot of it had to do with my high school reunion. The 40-year was supposed to take place last summer, yet was postponed along with billions of other events until 2022 due to that punk-ass scourge we've all been dealing with. 

I understand that high school reunions aren't everyone's cup of Rainer, but I've always enjoyed attending and I was really looking forward to this one. In the weeks leading up to the party, several classmates experienced life-changing tragedies, compounding my desire to just check in with people, to take a day to celebrate our childhood connections. Nothing warms my crusty old heart like reliving the heaven on earth that is hamburger gravy over whipped potatoes with someone who can relate.

A week-and-a-half before the reunion, I came down with the aforementioned punk-ass virus. It was my turn to understand first-hand that the shit is serious business, and that I'd have a ten-day period to get over the symptoms, test negative, wait 48 hours and test negative again. It was my sole path toward engaging in any hamburger gravy talk. 

During the initial three or four days, this seemed very unlikely. My head pounded and I couldn't remember that kind of throat burning since my tonsils were carved out in the '60s. I have asthma, so I was fortunate enough to receive a prescription of Paxlovid. It's an antiviral therapeutic and I'll be dipped in corn yogurt if it isn't the most amazing pharmaceutical I've ever taken (well, top five, anyway). After five days I was symptom free, and after ten I'd had two negative tests and no rebound infection. Hamburger gravy was on! 

At that point, I was elated just to be feeling better, and the reunion was great. There's something about being around people who accompanied me through my most exciting, uncertain, coming-of-age years that just can't be matched. I'm so grateful to be reminded of this every ten years.

Our brains were indeed offline back in those days—but at least they were offline together. 

Dealing with those emotional velociraptors.

How's your anxiety level these days? Off the chart? On the chart but off the grid? On the grid but off the chain? On the chain but off the hook?

Lord knows there's a smorgasbord of triggers out there right now. It's like the instant we wake up, we take our place in the buffet line of dreadful delights. We slide our tray down the rails, accepting warm plates heaped with gun violence, war, climate catastrophe, inflation and more varieties of COVID-19 than there were soft serve toppings at Roy's Chuckwagon. 

And for good measure, who's down at the end of the buffet line carving the roast beast under the heat lamp, but this dude:

The mysterious creature above was photographed just outside a zoo in Amarillo, Texas. I swear to God, these days if it's not hitchhiking clowns, it's a damn chupacabra in search of a hookup.

I've always been an anxious person. Like I've swallowed a stiff, unwashed hankie that never digests, my anxiety lives wadded up inside my chest and stomach. Its crusty, gym sock-sized wad seems to swell and shrink with unpredictable regularity both day and night. 

I've employed various strategies in an effort to tamp down my anxiety—things like self-medicating with a six-pack of Bodhizafa and box of Double Stuff Pop Tarts, Now With Real Pork! shortly before bedtime. Typically, this approach is effective until around three in the morning, when I wake up in a self-loathing hot flash with a throbbing headache and the aftertaste of Satan's dingleberries in my mouth. 

As it is with depression, mindfulness can be a very helpful tool in combating anxiety. By challenging our thoughts rather than swallowing them, it's possible to step over the rabbit hole instead of plummeting into it.

I mentioned that morning is my most anxious time. Here's an example of an average day's waking thoughts:

1) Shit, I need to address that work thing, that thing where that guy's asking for that thing that's not really a thing, but I have to convince him it's not a thing, and that's the thing. 

2) The world is burning up (except for Yellowstone, site of Noah's Ark II).

3) Democracy is doomed because Orange Ass Face is going to run again and win.

4) My kids are out there somewhere, completely defenseless and unprotected (by me). Because of this, something terrible could, and probably will, happen.

5) COVID is mutating again, and it's coming back with wings, hooves, teeth and a spinal column.

6) My arches are cramping and there's not quite enough milk left for the proper Grape Nuts to milk ratio. 

Therefore, I'm screwed and nothing's ever going to be okay—ever, ever again.

So yeah, that's my typical morning medley of horrors. But here's the good news: it doesn't have to take an answer ending in "_anax" to put out this fire. In fact, it can be as simple as devoting just an additional smidge of thought to each worry and formulating a reasonable, factual response.

1) Yes, I do have to figure out that thing, but I will, the same way I have been for the past 30 years. In fact, chances are that I won't even remember the thing a couple of days from now.

2) It's true, and it's frightening. But I can only do what's in my control, like recycling, composting and taking my styrofoam to the forest rather than burning it.

3) This is also a terrifying thought, and one that isn't going away. But worrying about it and/or demonizing the "other side" won't change a thing. As convoluted as their thinking may seem, it's based in fear the same way mine is.

4) Step off, old man. The kids are fine. 

5) Perhaps, but at least it'll be more challenging for it to enter my nasal lining. Plus, I'll be able to use a baseball bat against it instead of a mask.

6) I'll stretch out my arches and heat up last night's spaghetti. Mmm...last night's spaghetti.

See? Not hard at all, and it normally keeps those issues from lingering like a banana peel in a tube top. For most of us, anxiety isn't something we can eliminate from our lives, but like the dinosaurs of Jurassic World, maybe we can learn to co-exist with those emotional velociraptors.

Shock Doesn't Make an Appearance Anymore.

I've always had challenges labeling my emotions, especially the subtler, more nuanced feelings. Titles like aggravation, anticipation, envy and amusement are not easily accessible on my emotional bookshelf, so I've been working on that. I try to be mindful in anxious situations, to think about what I'm thinking about prior to allowing myself to escalate into that popular loop of fear, anger and shame. Despite those efforts the cycle is triggered every time a mass shooting occurs. 

Fear predictably floods in first. Thoughts of my family. Could this could happen at the elementary school where my wife teaches? Or at my daughter's college, or the high school where my other daughter coaches? 

I know the answer. The fear has a purity, a validity, now a familiarity. It's not the childish terror of an imaginary bogie man who enters when the lights go out. It's the fear of a real one who bursts in and destroys the world a little before noon on a Tuesday. 

As I lie in bed, I think about people like Ted Cruz and Greg Abbott. I wonder how they can live with themselves and what are they thinking about right now. Do they actually believe what they say or is it an act?  I conclude that Ted does believe it because he's a narcissistic douchebag with no conscience. Now it's anger's turn, time for dark sentiments to bury the fear. 

Finally, all that's left is the shame. We're all pretty good at that one, right? It's something we bestow on ourselves and each other with such regularity. In this case, we will share it, again. 

Setting the Record Straight About Seattle.

Seattle's been my home for around 40 years, and for most of that time, the town's flown under the national radar, nearly invisibly occupying its place in the upper left corner of the country. The place has always been the quiet kid in the back row who does well in science and dresses for the weather.

Throughout, the Emerald City's political sensibilities have leaned left, but it wasn't until the WTO shutdown of 1999 that Seattle catapulted itself into the "big league" of protest cities. When George Floyd was murdered in 2020, the Seattle demonstrations again drew worldwide attention, as Fox News portrayed the city as a flaming, dystopian hellhole, driven by a lawless mob intent on exterminating the police.

I do wonder sometimes what people who've never been here or haven't visited in a while, think Seattle is currently like. Do they believe it's nothing more than a weed-reeking nest of Marxist honkies who slow roast newborns on Webber pellet kettles in the Amazon employee picnic area while analyzing every vaccinated person's personal data as obtained from injected microchips?

Who knows? Maybe, which is why I'm here to answer your questions. Granted, I'm no expert, just a citizen of the Jet City intent on setting the story straight, but I've taken a deep dive into the mailbag and compiled your most asked queries:

Q: Is there a limit to the number of political and personal belief signs I can place in my front yard?

A: Yes, the limit is 36, but you can get around it by listing as many as 12 beliefs on a single sign. In stark contrast, you may have noticed that the other side prefers flags, with minimal or no words. Probably a good idea.

Q: Is it true that Seattle's radical leftist educators assault our children's minds with a non-stop barrage of critical race theory, LGBTQ+ lifestyle indoctrination and forced multiculturalism?

A: Okay, that's what you'd call a loaded question. It's like being asked if you've stopped spanking your cat, which presupposes the fact that you spank(ed) your cat. And while it's true that on occasion you've wanted to spank your cat with a confusing enthusiasm, you've never done such a thing, and therefore the question's basis is flawed. The same goes for the Seattle schools question. Love and acceptance are taught, as is history. Pretty simple, and not necessarily commie practices per se.

Oh, and before we move on, doesn't it seem like it would be difficult to spank a cat more than once? And chances are it would happen tail-up. No thanks.

Q: Is the Seattle freeze real?

A: Hell, yes, it is. And morning walkers in Seattle are a group of particularly cold-hearted assholes. For god's sake, I'm so careful about not getting any theatrical makeup on them during the hug.

Q: Why do you want to defund the police? Are you daft?

A: That's two questions, so I'll go in order. No one I know in these parts favors eliminating police. What's needed are supplemental, differently trained first responders. Police officers can then focus on honing skill sets that deal more effectively with their entire communities. As to the second question, yes, I have been daft for a preacher's fortnight. *

* Not a thing

Q: Is it true that there is one type of Seattle dog owner who is so annoying that this must be called out in your blog?

A: Great question! Yes, this is unfortunately true. The group consists of people who believe their dogs understand English language and sentence structure. The other day at Alki, here's what the woman on the left said to her dog as it yapped away at a passerby:

"Let's regulate. Take a couple of deep breaths, Meatballs."

Meatballs? If you're convinced your dog understands English, how insulting is it to name him/her/them Meatballs? Plus, have you ever seen a dog take a deep breath? Usually not a good sign.

Q: There's no debate that our city is facing some massive challenges, many with no solution in sight. With all that's going on in Seattle—the homelessness, the racial unrest, the crime, mountains of trash and endless blankets of graffiti on shuttered storefronts—is the city a lost cause?

A: I don't think so. But Seattle can't heal in a bubble. Until the rest of the nation addresses the same issues that Seattle struggles with—those originating in their own back yards—the Emerald City is in for a rough go.

I suppose for now, all we can do is regulate.